Worst of All...

I am aware that after I publish my two reactions on the current situation of election in Paluan ( Why I sometimes hate Paluan at Am I a Looser? ), magkaka award ako sa kanila, as in nakakaasar na award.

Yeah, Tama ang iniisip mo. Actually, nabasa na nila ang blog ko! Thank God... At least nalaman nila ang sentimyento ko sa buhay. Hindi naman talaga ako nagrerebelde e, hindi ako nagwawala... I am just thinking things for better and for worst.

But no! Naging negative ang mga bagay na napost ko dito especially sa Mayor namin sa Paluan. Am I driving him crazy to these posts? If hindi totoo man ang mapopost ko dito, if he's true to himself, hindi siya, magrereact ng ganito.

This is the story kung bakit nagsisintimyento na naman ako:

I called my Mom katatapos lang para sabihin na hindi na ako makakauwi ng Paluan para makapagreview ako para sa exams but then iba ang naging tono ng Mommy ko. Hindi ko man lang nasabi ang gusto kong sabihin at galit niyang sinabi na galit siya sa akin of what I posted here.

Isa sa mga taga-Munisipyo namin ang nagprint ng mga ipinosts ko at ipinamahagi at ibinigay sa mga tao doon including the Mayor. That person is making the situation worst.

Actually, gusto ko na sanang i-erase ang mga posts ko dito regarding election para wala nang problema. But then eto na e... This is the worst effect of all. Feeling ko galit sa akin lahat ng tao sa Paluan. But thank you na rin (sa nagprint at nagpakalat, pangalan ay M)....

At least hindi ako plastic! Nagtatry na rin ako to do moves here. I don't know what will happen next.

Kung hindi na lang sana nila ako pinakialamanan noong una, and respect my decision, hindi lalaki ito ng ganito. At saka, e ano kung nalaman nila na maka-kabila ako? E hindi naman ako uuwi sa election 'di ba? At saka kung kailan na motivate na ako why I need to vote for the incumbent Mayor, saka nangyari ito. Because of my Family, I'll vote for thier choice... not only because it's their choice... kundi choice ko na rin as well.

I felt so sorry to my Mom and my Kuya na nadamay sa issue na ito. I know that from then on, mag-iiba na ang lahat because of me. I don't know if there will be healing but then I am still hoping. Hirap talaga to have my own choice... dapat majority! Tama ba?

Haha! Am I crazy? I'm making a BIG difference now...

15 comments:

mahirap nga pag nalaman ng mga kakilala mo sa totoong buhay ang nilalaman ng blog mo...

cha
May 7, 2007 at 4:37 AM comment-delete

alam naman ng lahat na sa Pilipinas ay may freedom of expression dibah..

tama ka sa mga sinabi mo na hindi sila magrereact ng ganun na lang kung sa tingin nila e wala namang katotohanan yun dibah..

hayaan mo na kung ganun ang gusto nilang isipin na kesyo negative yun para sa mayor(tama ba..)..

atleast ngayon dapat talaga magingat ka na sa mga ipopost mo... o kaya kung nais mo, magpalit ka ng link tapos yung mga members lang ang makakabasa sa post mo...

ingat..

May 7, 2007 at 5:57 AM comment-delete

Ang lupit naman pinaprint pa?

Pero at least naipahayag mo ang kung ano sa tingin mo ay ang tama.

May 7, 2007 at 7:42 AM comment-delete

ang tindi naman ng pressure sa'yo grabe... bakit ganun... tsk tsk... karapatan ang bumoto... kakakita ko lang ng commercial tungkol sa election e...yung tao kumakain ng bubble gum tapos parang hiningi nung isa... aba, ibinigay... mali yun dahil ang bubble gum at ang boto mo ay iyo.... di dapat ipagamit sa iba... at hindi pinipilit... haay... sana maayos rin ang lahat...

May 7, 2007 at 8:03 AM comment-delete

truth hurts you know...

May 7, 2007 at 9:58 AM comment-delete

you have nothing to be afraid of. Unless mamamatay tao ang incumbent mayor nyo.. know what? i think it's better to have something you can stand for, something you'll be proud of at the end of the day..

hindi kasalanan ang magkaroon ng sariling isip. at hindi rin kasalanang bumalikwas sa nakasanayan.

kaya hindi umuunlad ang pilipino, dahil sa mga takot sumalungat sa agos, sa mga takot mamatay, sa mga takot mahusgahan at sa mga takot mawalan.

"Ang payapang pampang ay para lamang sa mga mapangahas na sasalungat sa alimpuyo ng bagyo." -paraphrase, Dekada '70 *di ko matandaan exact words eh*

Anonymous
May 7, 2007 at 11:15 AM comment-delete

Everybody is entitled of their own opinion. I don't find anything wrong of what you DID!!! Go man! It's just a matter od thoughts and opinions!

--K2 [ http://kapamilyados.blogspot.com ]

Anonymous
May 7, 2007 at 4:55 PM comment-delete

A Bit of Advise to Richard Lionheart. .

I am a Palueño and I am saddened to come across "Why I Sometimes Hate Paluan" in the friendster blogs.

Why? What is happening to all of the people out here during elections? Nagmumukhang pera ba ang lahat ng tao sa Paluan pag election? Pulitiko bang lahat ng tao dito? Ilang milyon ba ang prize ng Calawagan River noong nanalo bilang Cleanest Inland Body of Water in the Philippines? Bulag ka ba para hindi mo makita ang mga pagbabago sa Calawagan Mountain Resort? O mayroon kang blinders? Sayang, ang ganda pa naman ng picture mo sa Calawagan River.

It may really seem easy for you to believe that you live in your own world, with access to anything and everything that technology can provide. You are indeed very lucky that you are sheltered from the realities of your hometown. You asked: "Am I a looser now?” And you said: “ There’s always a choice.” This is a very true. So what are you waiting for? Why don’t you go home and vote for your chosen candidates? This is the essence of elections.

You are free to say anything and everything you want to say. But, a bit of advise: get your facts straight. Okay?

Anonymous
May 7, 2007 at 7:41 PM comment-delete

To anonymous, what Friendster Blog?

I have no friendster blog okey?

Sana naman ipost mo dito ang link...

Salamat!

May 8, 2007 at 4:39 AM comment-delete

To ANONYMOUS - author of "A Bit of Advise"

first & foremost... when you use adviCe as a noun.. it should come with a "c"..

pangalawa.. ilang milyon nga ba ang pinanalunan ng Calawagan? isa? dalawa? tatlo? hall of famer, di ba? & at least PhP 1 million per award. at kung iisang milyon man, nasaan? yes, we know and we are very proud.. maganda ang Calawagan. naturally. at kung sinasabi mo na may malaking ipinagbago.. NASAAN? hindi kaya ikaw ang nabubulagan?

& what are you really trying to say? do you admit that something is going wrong with your hometown or what? you say, Lionheart is "lucky that he is sheltered from the realities of his hometown".. what are these realities that are you referring to then?

anu't anuman, mahal natin ang Paluan. but let us get real here. ano ang totoo? masaya ka ba sa kasalukuyang kalagayan ng Paluan bilang pinakakulelat na bayan ng Kanlurang Mindoro?

masaya ka ba na sisindi lamang ang ilaw pag alas dose ng tanghali o singko ng hapon at mamatay pag magha-hatinggabi na? masaya ka ba na magkakaroon lamang ng kuryente bente-kwatro oras kapag may bisita ang mayor? this is but one simple fact. & now you're getting it straight, right?

& do you say you are not aware of what happens in your beloved hometown during election times? com'on..

NAKAKALUNGKOT...

Anonymous
May 8, 2007 at 6:01 AM comment-delete

hay naku,inggit lng cguro cla sa blog mo,kaya sobrang pinangalandakan sa paluan..

anyway,masakit kc talagang tanggapin ang katotohanan..
very affected cla kac totoo..

ouch!it hurts..hahaha...
ryt mo yan macmac so ok lng,hayaan mo cla.

Anonymous
May 9, 2007 at 7:22 AM comment-delete

It seems you really have a real talent of being TRUE TO YOURSELF. It really is something to admire. However, I think there are a few more things that you need to be called "admirable":

1. Think first before doing anything - you realize that you did something really stupid after hell breaks loose and its too late to make ammends.

2. There are things that needs to be kept inside the Family Circle - Does these words mean anything to you? Information that is completely yours to protect as an individual member of your own family, otherwise, things can get pretty ugly.

3. Learn when to shutup - Despite the fact that you already realized how deep the shithole you placed your own family into, you still have the guts to do sequels of your "heroic blogs". What the heck are you thinking?

4. Be original - You're thinking that everything you said is completely your original thought? Think again. Look around you. See the people who's giving you the "good influences", pushing you to the "right direction". Friends who admire what you are doing. Do you think they really care for your family's safety and pride?

5. Self-respect - if you can't respect your own parents, how can you respect yourself? How about your sister and brother? These people will do everything to keep you in the right track, give you the best future. The question is, can you do the same for them? Specially your sister? I extremely doubt it.

6. Simplicity - Yes, we all want to do our part to improve our society. But do you really have to hurt your family this much just to "true" to yourself?. Don't you have anything much "simpler" to do to support the things you believe in?

Now, to answer your question. Think about it, why do you need to ask this question? Don't you think you're a little insecure right now? I think you already know the answer to this question.

As for me..

YES, YOU ARE ONE HELL OF A LOOSER

Just trying to be true,

The Unmentionable

PS: By the way, why do you call yourself "Richard the Lionheart"?

Anonymous
May 10, 2007 at 3:50 AM comment-delete

What do you seek, UNMENTIONABLE?
Do you desire that I build for
You gorgeous palaces, decorated
With words of empty meaning, or
Temples roofed with dreams? Or
Do you command me to destroy what
The liars and tyrants have built?
Shall I uproot with my fingers
What the hypocrites and the wicked
Have implanted? Speak your insane
Wish!
What is it you would have me do,
UNMENTIONABLE? Shall I purr like
The kitten to satisfy you, or roar
Like the lion to please myself? I
Have sung for you, but you did not
Dance; I have wept before you, but
You did not cry. Shall I sing and
Weep at the same time?
Your souls are suffering the pangs
Of hunger, and yet the fruit of
Knowledge is more plentiful than
The stones of the valleys.
Your hearts are withering from
Thirst, and yet the springs of
Life are streaming about your
Homes -- why do you not drink?
The sea has its ebb and flow,
The moon has its fullness and
Crescents, and the ages have
Their winter and summer, and all
Things vary like the shadow of
An unborn god moving between
Earth and sun, but truth cannot
Be changed, nor will it pass away;
Why, then, do you endeavour to
Disfigure its countenance?
I have called you in the silence
Of the night to point out the
Glory of the moon and the dignity
Of the stars, but you startled
From your slumber and clutched
Your swords in fear, crying,
"Where is the enemy? We must kill
Him first!" At morningtide, when
The enemy came, I called to you
Again, but now you did not wake
From your slumber, for you were
Locked in fear, wrestling with
The processions of spectres in
Your dreams.
And I said unto you, "Let us climb
To the mountain top and view the
Beauty of the world." And you
Answered me, saying, "In the depths
Of this valley our fathers lived,
And in its shadows they died, and in
Its caves they were buried. How can
We depart this place for one which
They failed to honour?"
And I said unto you, "Let us go to
The plain that gives its bounty to
The sea." And you spoke timidly to
Me, saying, "The uproar of the abyss
Will frighten our spirits, and the
Terror of the depths will deaden
Our bodies."
I have loved you, UNMENTIONABLE, but
My love for you is painful to me
And useless to you; and today I
Hate you, and hatred is a flood
That sweeps away the dry branches
And quavering houses.
I have pitied your weakness, UNMENTIONABLE, but my pity has but
Increased your feebleness, exalting
And nourishing slothfulness which
Is vain to life. And today I see
Your infirmity which my soul loathes
And fears.
I have cried over your humiliation
And submission, and my tears streamed
Like crystalline, but could not sear
Away your stagnant weakness; yet they
Removed the veil from my eyes.
My tears have never reached your
Petrified hearts, but they cleansed
The darkness from my inner self.
Today I am mocking at your suffering,
For laughter is a raging thunder that
Precedes the tempest and never comes
After it.
What do you desire, UNMENTIONABLE?
Do you wish for me to show you
The ghost of your countenance on
The face of still water? Come,
Now, and see how ugly you are!
Look and meditate! Fear has
Turned your hair grey as the
Ashes, and dissipation has grown
Over your eyes and made them into
Obscured hollows, and cowardice
Has touched your cheeks that now
Appear as dismal pits in the
Valley, and death has kissed
Your lips and left them yellow
As the autumn leaves.
What is it that you seek, UNMENTIONABLE? What ask you from
Life, who does not any longer
Count you among her children?
Your souls are freezing in the
Clutches of the priests and
Sorcerers, and your bodies
Tremble between the paws of the
Despots and the shedders of
Blood, and your country quakes
Under the marching feet of the
Conquering enemy; what may you
Expect even though you stand
Proudly before the face of the
Sun? Your swords are sheathed
With rust, and your spears are
Broken, and your shields are
Laden with gaps, why, then, do
You stand in the field of battle?
Hypocrisy is your religion, and
Falsehood is your life, and
Nothingness is your ending; why,
Then, are you living? Is not
Death the sole comfort of the
Miserable?
Life is a resolution that
Accompanies youth, and a diligence
That follows maturity, and a
Wisdom that pursues senility; but
You, UNMENTIONABLE, was born old
And weak. And your skins withered
And your heads shrank, whereupon
You become as children, running
Into the mire and casting stones
Upon each other.
Knowledge is a light, enriching
The warmth of life, and all may
Partake who seek it out; but you,
UNMENTIONABLE, seek out darkness
And flee the light, awaiting the
Coming of water from the rock,
And your nation's misery is your
Crime. I do not forgive you
Your sins, for you know what you
Are doing.
Humanity is a brilliant river
Singing its way and carrying with
It the mountains' secrets into
The heart of the sea; but you,
UNMENTIONABLE, are stagnant
Marshes infested with insects
And vipers.
The spirit is a sacred blue
Torch, burning and devouring
The dry plants, and growing
With the storm and illuminating
The faces of the goddesses; but
You, UNMENTIONABLE, your soul
is like ashes which the winds
Scatter upon the snow, and which
The tempests disperse forever in
The valleys.
Fear not the phantom of death,
UNMENTIONABLE, for his greatness
And mercy will refuse to approach
Your smallness; and dread not the
Dagger, for it will decline to be
Lodged in your shallow hearts.
I hate you, UNMENTIONABLE, because
You hate glory and greatness. I
Despise you because you despise
Yourselves. I am your enemy, for
You refuse to realize that you are
The enemies of the goddesses.

Anonymous
May 10, 2007 at 9:50 AM comment-delete

there na ha naglagay na ko ng comment sayo... hay it took me a moment before i found this page gawd it's like a maze i told u i'm not technologically inclined (techie for short...) like u do... anyway have a nice day if u still can't see my picturetrail account my username is janjan1029 sa friendser ok? www.picturetrail.com/janjan1029 at www.friendster.com/janjan1029

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